Sometimes...

I would just rather not know. The moments that I really wish the Lord would prevent my eyes from seeing. I'm sure He does that WAY more than I'm aware of but it doesn't make my vulnerability any easier to deal with.

So now I comfortably sit by the fire and try to not think about it. I try to remember His reasons and His promises and His timing and His purposes. I try not to think and I try to keep praying instead. Someday I will not see but experience instead. Someday....because I know He wants that for me.